MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS

MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 78

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If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations. The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming. If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5. The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free. Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do. The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he is paid very, very well ... he is not feeling free either. But why?! Well ... cause the society is teaching us ... somehow by force ... to live in ... “prisons”. Now let me give you another example. Let’s assume the case of a businessman, that already had success, has a beautiful house, has money, a good company, a wife, beautiful kids .... basically everything. And ... still ... if you ask him if he is happy ... he will only reply that a piece from the puzzle is missing. I know lots of businessmen that have a great success ... and even if they have everything ... almost all of them have a mistress that is completing their lives. It’s a non sense ... i know ... cause most of them have the perfect life scenario. An amazing house. A amazing car ... or cars. A beautiful wife. Very nice children. ... and?! Why this nonsense?! Why does a person look for something else when already has the perfect life?! Well ... cause what we call ... perfection ... is only a dogmatic way of seeing life. The missing piece from the puzzle is the mistress ... that makes him feel loved in a totally different way. She makes him be ... a free person. A hobby would make the school boy and even the employee from the corporation ... to love what is doing ... and also feel free ... enjoying the present activity. You see ... no matter what path we chose in life ... the moment when we forget about the dogmatic path of living ... we feel the freedom. We feel alive. Our actions ... will look like a total nonsense to the others ... but we will be happy. The human being is looking for perfection ... but the happiness is not found in there. The dogmatism will never help us to ... be us. But ... on the path of discovering ... the real path ... at least we will have the guts to ... dream ... about the real freedom.


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Download or read book MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 78 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations. The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming. If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5. The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free. Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do. The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he is paid very, very well ... he is not feeling free either. But why?! Well ... cause the society is teaching us ... somehow by force ... to live in ... “prisons”. Now let me give you another example. Let’s assume the case of a businessman, that already had success, has a beautiful house, has money, a good company, a wife, beautiful kids .... basically everything. And ... still ... if you ask him if he is happy ... he will only reply that a piece from the puzzle is missing. I know lots of businessmen that have a great success ... and even if they have everything ... almost all of them have a mistress that is completing their lives. It’s a non sense ... i know ... cause most of them have the perfect life scenario. An amazing house. A amazing car ... or cars. A beautiful wife. Very nice children. ... and?! Why this nonsense?! Why does a person look for something else when already has the perfect life?! Well ... cause what we call ... perfection ... is only a dogmatic way of seeing life. The missing piece from the puzzle is the mistress ... that makes him feel loved in a totally different way. She makes him be ... a free person. A hobby would make the school boy and even the employee from the corporation ... to love what is doing ... and also feel free ... enjoying the present activity. You see ... no matter what path we chose in life ... the moment when we forget about the dogmatic path of living ... we feel the freedom. We feel alive. Our actions ... will look like a total nonsense to the others ... but we will be happy. The human being is looking for perfection ... but the happiness is not found in there. The dogmatism will never help us to ... be us. But ... on the path of discovering ... the real path ... at least we will have the guts to ... dream ... about the real freedom.

The Invisible Walls of Dannemora

The Invisible Walls of Dannemora

Author: Michael Blaine

Publisher: Gaudium

Published: 2020-05-19

Total Pages:

ISBN-13: 9781592110438

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The infamous Clinton Correctional Facility in Dannemora, New York, in 2015 became the site of one of the most famous prison breaks in modern American history. However, the conditions that made possible the notorious escape and the massive manhunt that ensued had been developing for many years prior. Having earned the nickname of "Little Siberia", the brutal winters contributed to the already depressing façade of the facility. During the long, dark hours, the wind howled outside and sounded like ghosts haunting the halls of the prison. Dannemora had a proud past. Every employee chose to work there and there was always a transfer list of staff hoping to work there. It was a hard prison for hard criminals. Having housed the likes of mobster Charlie "Lucky" Luciano, "Son of Sam" David Berkowitz, Rappers Tupac Shakur, and Ol' Dirty Bastard, and countless other infamous criminals, the staff at the Clinton Correctional Facility knew how to handle even the toughest of men. Like most prisons, Clinton was a place of routine. Each day was very much like day before. It was a big, clunking machine that simply ran each day unless someone in the administration used poor judgement and tried to implement an unsafe change in policy or targeted the wrong staff member. The author, Michael H. Blaine spent a career at the Clinton Correctional Facility. Having been an Officer, Sergeant, and Lieutenant, his story reveals the changes he observed and what he experienced at each rank he earned. Refusing to compromise his principles and sickened by the downward spiral that Clinton was experiencing, he retired less than 10 1/2 months before the first successful escape at Dannemora on June 6, 2015. This new book reveals the inner workings of this massive prison. It is the first look inside at what it was like to work at the Clinton Correctional Facility, its effects on those who spent time there on both sides of the bars, revealing why nobody escapes the Invisible Walls of Dannemora.


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Download or read book The Invisible Walls of Dannemora written by Michael Blaine and published by Gaudium. This book was released on 2020-05-19 with total page pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The infamous Clinton Correctional Facility in Dannemora, New York, in 2015 became the site of one of the most famous prison breaks in modern American history. However, the conditions that made possible the notorious escape and the massive manhunt that ensued had been developing for many years prior. Having earned the nickname of "Little Siberia", the brutal winters contributed to the already depressing façade of the facility. During the long, dark hours, the wind howled outside and sounded like ghosts haunting the halls of the prison. Dannemora had a proud past. Every employee chose to work there and there was always a transfer list of staff hoping to work there. It was a hard prison for hard criminals. Having housed the likes of mobster Charlie "Lucky" Luciano, "Son of Sam" David Berkowitz, Rappers Tupac Shakur, and Ol' Dirty Bastard, and countless other infamous criminals, the staff at the Clinton Correctional Facility knew how to handle even the toughest of men. Like most prisons, Clinton was a place of routine. Each day was very much like day before. It was a big, clunking machine that simply ran each day unless someone in the administration used poor judgement and tried to implement an unsafe change in policy or targeted the wrong staff member. The author, Michael H. Blaine spent a career at the Clinton Correctional Facility. Having been an Officer, Sergeant, and Lieutenant, his story reveals the changes he observed and what he experienced at each rank he earned. Refusing to compromise his principles and sickened by the downward spiral that Clinton was experiencing, he retired less than 10 1/2 months before the first successful escape at Dannemora on June 6, 2015. This new book reveals the inner workings of this massive prison. It is the first look inside at what it was like to work at the Clinton Correctional Facility, its effects on those who spent time there on both sides of the bars, revealing why nobody escapes the Invisible Walls of Dannemora.

SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS

SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 104

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Today i would dare to define all our negative emotions as … spiritual garbage. We could speak about … sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, vulnerability, embarrassment, disappointment, and frustration … and many other issues … which bring a negative impact on our lives. After studying the people from the stage of my life, but also people which i never met in person … I’ve realized that many times the life itself … just sucks … because we allow to be connected and also be dominated… by lots of negative emotions. We accept … into our souls … ugly energies … which have a huge impact on us … on short and long term. And … we not even pay attention to those details. We ignore … the impact. We ignore that something which today looks so, so unimportant… sooner or later will have full control … on ourselves. Yes … truth be told … we are ignorants. We see this dance of contradictory emotions … that is actually controlling our lives … as normality. We not even dare to think of such a concept as …. spiritual garbage. But … you know why?! Cause … everyone … let us believe that this is … normal. And … yes … it’s normal to be surrounded… by garbage. That …. this is part of life. I smile in front of such perceptions. Then … i laugh of myself. I realize … how i’ve wasted my life … allowing myself to have inside myself an universe dominated … by negativity. And … changing all … became … just … a decision … but i was too coward to accept this ugly concept of … spiritual garbage. Even … if all was so, so obvious.


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Download or read book SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 104 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Today i would dare to define all our negative emotions as … spiritual garbage. We could speak about … sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, vulnerability, embarrassment, disappointment, and frustration … and many other issues … which bring a negative impact on our lives. After studying the people from the stage of my life, but also people which i never met in person … I’ve realized that many times the life itself … just sucks … because we allow to be connected and also be dominated… by lots of negative emotions. We accept … into our souls … ugly energies … which have a huge impact on us … on short and long term. And … we not even pay attention to those details. We ignore … the impact. We ignore that something which today looks so, so unimportant… sooner or later will have full control … on ourselves. Yes … truth be told … we are ignorants. We see this dance of contradictory emotions … that is actually controlling our lives … as normality. We not even dare to think of such a concept as …. spiritual garbage. But … you know why?! Cause … everyone … let us believe that this is … normal. And … yes … it’s normal to be surrounded… by garbage. That …. this is part of life. I smile in front of such perceptions. Then … i laugh of myself. I realize … how i’ve wasted my life … allowing myself to have inside myself an universe dominated … by negativity. And … changing all … became … just … a decision … but i was too coward to accept this ugly concept of … spiritual garbage. Even … if all was so, so obvious.

THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION

THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 131

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Identifying the illusion is not enough. But smiling is sometimes the only … option. You see … when we connect to people, we also connect to their inner worlds. And we see so, so many ideas, emotions, perceptions … such a large spectrum … that we don’t really understand most of the times. Sometimes … we ignore them. Sometimes .. we connect to those universes .. believing they are real and we somehow become part of them. No one ever told us … that we don’t have to believe that something is … real. We could simple look at the image from the front of our eyes … just as we look at a beautiful painting, asking ourselves what is the meaning that the artist had in mind when created that scene?! And now the question is …. who is the artist behind the illusion?! What is the meaning of the illusion?! How do we recognize this illusion if it said that all we see it’s an illusion?! How can we get out of such stories, repeated on and on and on?! Is there any theory that we should know regarding the illusions?! What do we understand seeing and connecting to the human being spectrum?! Well … i simple smile. I used to analyze and define a lot my life and everything that happened around myself, until the day when i realized i am a prisoner … But it was all so weird … cause i was the prisoner, the guardian of the prison, but also the prison itself. I was all … so how could i get rid of that?! And all the time i was remembering … that it’s all and illusion. That is the moment when i had the power to smile again … but being so silly, it all took such a long time to realize it. I was spending my life in a prison with invisible walls, jumping from my illusions to other’s people illusory worlds. I was simple replacing an illusion with another illusion … believing i escaped from the illusion. And still … I was having a weird feeling … that i was living the illusion of being part of an illusion. Each time a new story. And a new one. … and another one.


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Download or read book THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 131 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Identifying the illusion is not enough. But smiling is sometimes the only … option. You see … when we connect to people, we also connect to their inner worlds. And we see so, so many ideas, emotions, perceptions … such a large spectrum … that we don’t really understand most of the times. Sometimes … we ignore them. Sometimes .. we connect to those universes .. believing they are real and we somehow become part of them. No one ever told us … that we don’t have to believe that something is … real. We could simple look at the image from the front of our eyes … just as we look at a beautiful painting, asking ourselves what is the meaning that the artist had in mind when created that scene?! And now the question is …. who is the artist behind the illusion?! What is the meaning of the illusion?! How do we recognize this illusion if it said that all we see it’s an illusion?! How can we get out of such stories, repeated on and on and on?! Is there any theory that we should know regarding the illusions?! What do we understand seeing and connecting to the human being spectrum?! Well … i simple smile. I used to analyze and define a lot my life and everything that happened around myself, until the day when i realized i am a prisoner … But it was all so weird … cause i was the prisoner, the guardian of the prison, but also the prison itself. I was all … so how could i get rid of that?! And all the time i was remembering … that it’s all and illusion. That is the moment when i had the power to smile again … but being so silly, it all took such a long time to realize it. I was spending my life in a prison with invisible walls, jumping from my illusions to other’s people illusory worlds. I was simple replacing an illusion with another illusion … believing i escaped from the illusion. And still … I was having a weird feeling … that i was living the illusion of being part of an illusion. Each time a new story. And a new one. … and another one.

Beyond Invisible Walls

Beyond Invisible Walls

Author: Jacob D. Lindy

Publisher: Routledge

Published: 2013-05-13

Total Pages: 276

ISBN-13: 1134946333

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When the Berlin Wall fell in 1989, Westerners watched those who had survived the era of Soviet trauma emerge into what we hoped would be the exhilarating light of freedom. What we have witnessed, however, is a slow and painful process of progression and regression, of hope and disillusionment, of unexpected psychological barriers: invisible walls that block the progress we had hoped for. In Beyond Invisible Walls, East European therapists, themselves, draw a compelling picture of the waves of trauma that their people endured, the institutions of trauma that remained well after Stalin's era, and their impact on survivors and their families. They describe the psychological remnants of those years: walls that confine people by unconsciously preserving old adaptations to political terror, walls that divide one part of the mind from another, and walls that rise between one generation and the next. These therapists' stories allow us a striking glimpse into how patients' trauma evokes the therapists' own wounds; how both speaker and empathic listener find their way to a healing process, how the two begin to dismantle these invisible walls.


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Download or read book Beyond Invisible Walls written by Jacob D. Lindy and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2013-05-13 with total page 276 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When the Berlin Wall fell in 1989, Westerners watched those who had survived the era of Soviet trauma emerge into what we hoped would be the exhilarating light of freedom. What we have witnessed, however, is a slow and painful process of progression and regression, of hope and disillusionment, of unexpected psychological barriers: invisible walls that block the progress we had hoped for. In Beyond Invisible Walls, East European therapists, themselves, draw a compelling picture of the waves of trauma that their people endured, the institutions of trauma that remained well after Stalin's era, and their impact on survivors and their families. They describe the psychological remnants of those years: walls that confine people by unconsciously preserving old adaptations to political terror, walls that divide one part of the mind from another, and walls that rise between one generation and the next. These therapists' stories allow us a striking glimpse into how patients' trauma evokes the therapists' own wounds; how both speaker and empathic listener find their way to a healing process, how the two begin to dismantle these invisible walls.

DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives

DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 85

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Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things. Maybe it’s time to start meditating more. To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us. To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others. Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real. And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.


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Download or read book DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 85 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things. Maybe it’s time to start meditating more. To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us. To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others. Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real. And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.

The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths

The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 131

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Experiencing a path that takes us to nowhere … it’s not useless. We should understand and accept that not the destination is important … cause life has no real destination. …but what it is really important is maybe the experience itself. Good … bad … however it is … it all has the meaning to reveal to us the dance of energies beyond the scene of reality… making us aware that all is … energy. Into the end … maybe there is only one conclusion … but i hate saying it. Well … we could chose to connect just on the beautiful vibrations of life … and totally ignore negativity. But … we can’t. I … can’t … Maybe … i’ll never be able to do it. So … life continues …. revealing new and new experiences… and i still don’t really understand the energies … …. the amazing dance of energies. Looking … like a cocktail of …. elements … which induces us the illusion of the abstract. I smile … and i stop being annoyed. I allow to life to continue … and i finally accept that in fact … life would continue anyway … with or without my approval. And … all i have to do is just to experience it … with or without joy … even if i know that the only purpose is to evolve spiritually. So ….


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Download or read book The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 131 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Experiencing a path that takes us to nowhere … it’s not useless. We should understand and accept that not the destination is important … cause life has no real destination. …but what it is really important is maybe the experience itself. Good … bad … however it is … it all has the meaning to reveal to us the dance of energies beyond the scene of reality… making us aware that all is … energy. Into the end … maybe there is only one conclusion … but i hate saying it. Well … we could chose to connect just on the beautiful vibrations of life … and totally ignore negativity. But … we can’t. I … can’t … Maybe … i’ll never be able to do it. So … life continues …. revealing new and new experiences… and i still don’t really understand the energies … …. the amazing dance of energies. Looking … like a cocktail of …. elements … which induces us the illusion of the abstract. I smile … and i stop being annoyed. I allow to life to continue … and i finally accept that in fact … life would continue anyway … with or without my approval. And … all i have to do is just to experience it … with or without joy … even if i know that the only purpose is to evolve spiritually. So ….

Hell Is a Very Small Place

Hell Is a Very Small Place

Author: Jean Casella

Publisher: New Press, The

Published: 2014-11-11

Total Pages: 241

ISBN-13: 1620971380

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“An unforgettable look at the peculiar horrors and humiliations involved in solitary confinement” from the prisoners who have survived it (New York Review of Books). On any given day, the United States holds more than eighty-thousand people in solitary confinement, a punishment that—beyond fifteen days—has been denounced as a form of cruel and degrading treatment by the UN Special Rapporteur on Torture. Now, in a book that will add a startling new dimension to the debates around human rights and prison reform, former and current prisoners describe the devastating effects of isolation on their minds and bodies, the solidarity expressed between individuals who live side by side for years without ever meeting one another face to face, the ever-present specters of madness and suicide, and the struggle to maintain hope and humanity. As Chelsea Manning wrote from her own solitary confinement cell, “The personal accounts by prisoners are some of the most disturbing that I have ever read.” These firsthand accounts are supplemented by the writing of noted experts, exploring the psychological, legal, ethical, and political dimensions of solitary confinement. “Do we really think it makes sense to lock so many people alone in tiny cells for twenty-three hours a day, for months, sometimes for years at a time? That is not going to make us safer. That’s not going to make us stronger.” —President Barack Obama “Elegant but harrowing.” —San Francisco Chronicle “A potent cry of anguish from men and women buried way down in the hole.” —Kirkus Reviews


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Download or read book Hell Is a Very Small Place written by Jean Casella and published by New Press, The. This book was released on 2014-11-11 with total page 241 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “An unforgettable look at the peculiar horrors and humiliations involved in solitary confinement” from the prisoners who have survived it (New York Review of Books). On any given day, the United States holds more than eighty-thousand people in solitary confinement, a punishment that—beyond fifteen days—has been denounced as a form of cruel and degrading treatment by the UN Special Rapporteur on Torture. Now, in a book that will add a startling new dimension to the debates around human rights and prison reform, former and current prisoners describe the devastating effects of isolation on their minds and bodies, the solidarity expressed between individuals who live side by side for years without ever meeting one another face to face, the ever-present specters of madness and suicide, and the struggle to maintain hope and humanity. As Chelsea Manning wrote from her own solitary confinement cell, “The personal accounts by prisoners are some of the most disturbing that I have ever read.” These firsthand accounts are supplemented by the writing of noted experts, exploring the psychological, legal, ethical, and political dimensions of solitary confinement. “Do we really think it makes sense to lock so many people alone in tiny cells for twenty-three hours a day, for months, sometimes for years at a time? That is not going to make us safer. That’s not going to make us stronger.” —President Barack Obama “Elegant but harrowing.” —San Francisco Chronicle “A potent cry of anguish from men and women buried way down in the hole.” —Kirkus Reviews

THE PAINTER THAT NEVER PAINTS

THE PAINTER THAT NEVER PAINTS

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian G Dumitru

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Total Pages: 103

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The painter that never paints Unfortunately many times in my life, i was acting as my friend ... the painter ... that painter that was never painting It was Paris ... about 4-5 years ago. Someone introduced me a lady, which was a painter ... a very smart lady ... a genius i could say and it was a pleasure to spent time with her. We became friends. We started to go out everyday to the amazing coffees shops from the central area ... the ones close to the Seine and we were talking for hours. She was telling me about her next paintings and was describing me in tiny details all the elements of the scenes. Had an amazing way of talking ... but also knew a lot about art. In few weeks ... me ... a guy that did not knew anything about art, started to understand what is the whole meaning of art in our lives. Soon i understand that she is not painting anymore, cause, for the moment, she does not have the necessary money for painting materials .... and right away i give her an amount that she could start again. I also promise her to not worry, cause i will give as much as she needs to continue her work. Few days later, i dare to ask her if she started to work on the paintings that she was telling me about ... and suddenly she became very annoyed. Not understanding what is really going on ... being a polite person ... i succeed to change the subject and we continued in a nice way our conversation while drinking the amazing parisian coffee, but few days later i ask her again the same question. Suddenly she changed her face and became so angry that i thought for a second that she wants to ... kill me. I could not understand what was wrong. I was asking a painter if she was started to paint ... cause now she had the money for the materials. Again i succeed to avoid the useless conflict with her, but going to her apartment, which was small like any parisian apartment ... i see no painting materials. In the end she tells me that the materials will come in few more days, cause it was a delay to her order, but also asks if i can give her some extra money, for another order also. I smile ... cause in Paris you find painting materials in the city center and she could buy them right away ... but i give her the money she asked for. Before leaving the apartment, in the last second ... i see drugs on the small table from the entrance. I smile again ... and understood she used the money to buy drugs instead of materials. I saw at her house about 15 paintings and indeed she was a great painter, but she was the painter that was actually never painted. I leave ... and i get mad. It was all a trap. I was fooled like a 5 years old kid by this lady and actually i was helping her to take drugs ... without realizing not even for a second what i am doing. She called me later on ... 100 times, but never answer her back. Even told me that she will go to the Police to make a complain against me ... but could not clearly understand why. One year later, i accidentally meet her near the Opera ... and she was pretending that she did not knew my name anymore. I smile ... we exchange 2-3 words and i leave. But one day, 2 years later ... i was meditating again over the subject for about 2 weeks. Something was unclear for me ... and did not knew what and why. I judged her too much ... but maybe i was also the painter that never paints ... many, many, many times in my life. My parents supported me to study at the University of Polytechnics ... but i was not going to courses and instead i was losing my time in the coffee shops all day long. I was the student that never went to classes ... and i was doing same as the painter that was never painting. I complete University, i open a company and i had so many clients that sometimes i took money from my clients, spent them ... and forget to deliver the promised services to the clients. It was such a chaos at that time, that it was a total mess with the orders ... so ... i was doing what??! I was the businessman that promised to deliver some services that were never delivered. I was judging the painter ... but i was worst as her. The list with my silly mistakes from life ... was huge. I remember i read hundreds of books of personal growth ... and one day i even read a lot about management if conflicts ... and guess what i did next after i finished studying that subject?! I laugh ... while writing to you ... cause what i did was that i had more and more useless conflicts with the people from my life. So ... the best definition of myself could probably be the same as that silly lady ... the painter that never paints.


Book Synopsis THE PAINTER THAT NEVER PAINTS by : Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Download or read book THE PAINTER THAT NEVER PAINTS written by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru and published by Adrian G Dumitru. This book was released on with total page 103 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The painter that never paints Unfortunately many times in my life, i was acting as my friend ... the painter ... that painter that was never painting It was Paris ... about 4-5 years ago. Someone introduced me a lady, which was a painter ... a very smart lady ... a genius i could say and it was a pleasure to spent time with her. We became friends. We started to go out everyday to the amazing coffees shops from the central area ... the ones close to the Seine and we were talking for hours. She was telling me about her next paintings and was describing me in tiny details all the elements of the scenes. Had an amazing way of talking ... but also knew a lot about art. In few weeks ... me ... a guy that did not knew anything about art, started to understand what is the whole meaning of art in our lives. Soon i understand that she is not painting anymore, cause, for the moment, she does not have the necessary money for painting materials .... and right away i give her an amount that she could start again. I also promise her to not worry, cause i will give as much as she needs to continue her work. Few days later, i dare to ask her if she started to work on the paintings that she was telling me about ... and suddenly she became very annoyed. Not understanding what is really going on ... being a polite person ... i succeed to change the subject and we continued in a nice way our conversation while drinking the amazing parisian coffee, but few days later i ask her again the same question. Suddenly she changed her face and became so angry that i thought for a second that she wants to ... kill me. I could not understand what was wrong. I was asking a painter if she was started to paint ... cause now she had the money for the materials. Again i succeed to avoid the useless conflict with her, but going to her apartment, which was small like any parisian apartment ... i see no painting materials. In the end she tells me that the materials will come in few more days, cause it was a delay to her order, but also asks if i can give her some extra money, for another order also. I smile ... cause in Paris you find painting materials in the city center and she could buy them right away ... but i give her the money she asked for. Before leaving the apartment, in the last second ... i see drugs on the small table from the entrance. I smile again ... and understood she used the money to buy drugs instead of materials. I saw at her house about 15 paintings and indeed she was a great painter, but she was the painter that was actually never painted. I leave ... and i get mad. It was all a trap. I was fooled like a 5 years old kid by this lady and actually i was helping her to take drugs ... without realizing not even for a second what i am doing. She called me later on ... 100 times, but never answer her back. Even told me that she will go to the Police to make a complain against me ... but could not clearly understand why. One year later, i accidentally meet her near the Opera ... and she was pretending that she did not knew my name anymore. I smile ... we exchange 2-3 words and i leave. But one day, 2 years later ... i was meditating again over the subject for about 2 weeks. Something was unclear for me ... and did not knew what and why. I judged her too much ... but maybe i was also the painter that never paints ... many, many, many times in my life. My parents supported me to study at the University of Polytechnics ... but i was not going to courses and instead i was losing my time in the coffee shops all day long. I was the student that never went to classes ... and i was doing same as the painter that was never painting. I complete University, i open a company and i had so many clients that sometimes i took money from my clients, spent them ... and forget to deliver the promised services to the clients. It was such a chaos at that time, that it was a total mess with the orders ... so ... i was doing what??! I was the businessman that promised to deliver some services that were never delivered. I was judging the painter ... but i was worst as her. The list with my silly mistakes from life ... was huge. I remember i read hundreds of books of personal growth ... and one day i even read a lot about management if conflicts ... and guess what i did next after i finished studying that subject?! I laugh ... while writing to you ... cause what i did was that i had more and more useless conflicts with the people from my life. So ... the best definition of myself could probably be the same as that silly lady ... the painter that never paints.

Invisible Walls

Invisible Walls

Author: Hella Pick

Publisher: Weidenfeld & Nicolson

Published: 2021-03-18

Total Pages: 320

ISBN-13: 1474613764

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'Memoirs of such richness are rare . . . a joy' JAMES NAUGHTIE 'A remarkable personal journey, by one of the great political correspondents of our world - eloquent, enlightening, exhilarating' PHILIPPE SANDS A trailblazer for women in journalism, Hella Pick arrived in Britain in 1939 as a child refugee from Austria. Over nearly four decades she covered the volatile global scene, first in West Africa, followed by America and long periods in Europe. In her thirty-five years with the Guardian she reported on the end of Empire in West Africa, the assassination of President Kennedy, Martin Luther King's march from Selma to Montgomery, the Vietnam peace negotiation in Paris, the 1968 student revolt in France, the birth of the Solidarity movement in Poland, and the closing stages of the Cold War. A request for coffee on board a Soviet ship anchored in Malta led to a chat with Mikhail Gorbachev. A request for an interview with Willy Brandt led to a personal friendship that enabled her to come to terms with Germany's Nazi past. Her book is also a clarion call for preserving professionalism in journalism at a time when social media muddy the waters between fact and fiction, and between reporting and commentary. INVISIBLE WALLS tells the dramatic story of how a Kindertransport survivor won the trust and sometimes the friendship of world leaders, and with them a wide range of remarkable men and women. It speaks frankly of personal heartache and of a struggle over her Jewish identity. It is also the intensely touching story of how, despite a gift for friendship and international recognised achievements as a woman journalist, a continuing sense of personal insecurity has confronted her with a series of invisible walls.


Book Synopsis Invisible Walls by : Hella Pick

Download or read book Invisible Walls written by Hella Pick and published by Weidenfeld & Nicolson. This book was released on 2021-03-18 with total page 320 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: 'Memoirs of such richness are rare . . . a joy' JAMES NAUGHTIE 'A remarkable personal journey, by one of the great political correspondents of our world - eloquent, enlightening, exhilarating' PHILIPPE SANDS A trailblazer for women in journalism, Hella Pick arrived in Britain in 1939 as a child refugee from Austria. Over nearly four decades she covered the volatile global scene, first in West Africa, followed by America and long periods in Europe. In her thirty-five years with the Guardian she reported on the end of Empire in West Africa, the assassination of President Kennedy, Martin Luther King's march from Selma to Montgomery, the Vietnam peace negotiation in Paris, the 1968 student revolt in France, the birth of the Solidarity movement in Poland, and the closing stages of the Cold War. A request for coffee on board a Soviet ship anchored in Malta led to a chat with Mikhail Gorbachev. A request for an interview with Willy Brandt led to a personal friendship that enabled her to come to terms with Germany's Nazi past. Her book is also a clarion call for preserving professionalism in journalism at a time when social media muddy the waters between fact and fiction, and between reporting and commentary. INVISIBLE WALLS tells the dramatic story of how a Kindertransport survivor won the trust and sometimes the friendship of world leaders, and with them a wide range of remarkable men and women. It speaks frankly of personal heartache and of a struggle over her Jewish identity. It is also the intensely touching story of how, despite a gift for friendship and international recognised achievements as a woman journalist, a continuing sense of personal insecurity has confronted her with a series of invisible walls.