Waiting to Die Longing to Love

Waiting to Die Longing to Love

Author: Russell K. Lanier

Publisher: Createspace Independent Publishing Platform

Published: 2015-11-30

Total Pages: 344

ISBN-13: 9781519593993

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I got out of jail in north Alabama. It's my fifth Driving Under the Influence charge. My jail time is too short -- just two days. The fine is too low -- just $750. The judge is lenient and my lawyer is skilled. He works out a plea deal so a conviction will never appear on my driving record. This misadventure is merely the latest experience in a life not worth living. I am only one of 23-million people in the United States burdened with the deadly disease of addiction. That's roughly thirteen percent of the population. I won't live long if I keep using, and I'm not sure I want to live even if I stop. I've seen others kick their habits, but at age forty-nine, I am overweight and unemployed -- a hopeless case. I am waiting to die, but longing to live -- and love. The story you are about to read tells how I finally got clean and sober from both drugs and alcohol. As you read each chapter, you will discover several things that may help you understand the mind of a drug addict. It's about healing and how I came to understand that the thing I needed to be saved from most is me. So, come along with me now as I hold your hand and take you with me on my road to recovery. You will see addiction's true personality as I turn the spotlight on this monster. Hold on tight because it's going to be one hell of a roller coaster ride!


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Download or read book Waiting to Die Longing to Love written by Russell K. Lanier and published by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform. This book was released on 2015-11-30 with total page 344 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: I got out of jail in north Alabama. It's my fifth Driving Under the Influence charge. My jail time is too short -- just two days. The fine is too low -- just $750. The judge is lenient and my lawyer is skilled. He works out a plea deal so a conviction will never appear on my driving record. This misadventure is merely the latest experience in a life not worth living. I am only one of 23-million people in the United States burdened with the deadly disease of addiction. That's roughly thirteen percent of the population. I won't live long if I keep using, and I'm not sure I want to live even if I stop. I've seen others kick their habits, but at age forty-nine, I am overweight and unemployed -- a hopeless case. I am waiting to die, but longing to live -- and love. The story you are about to read tells how I finally got clean and sober from both drugs and alcohol. As you read each chapter, you will discover several things that may help you understand the mind of a drug addict. It's about healing and how I came to understand that the thing I needed to be saved from most is me. So, come along with me now as I hold your hand and take you with me on my road to recovery. You will see addiction's true personality as I turn the spotlight on this monster. Hold on tight because it's going to be one hell of a roller coaster ride!

Washed and Waiting

Washed and Waiting

Author: Wesley Hill

Publisher: ReadHowYouWant.com

Published: 2010-11-29

Total Pages: 206

ISBN-13: 1458723941

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Yet many who sit next to us in the pew at church fit that description, says author Wesley Hill. As a celibate gay Christian, Hill gives us a glimpse of what it looks like to wrestle firsthand with God's ''No'' to same-sex relationships. What does it mean for gay Christians to live faithful to God while struggling with the challenge of their homosexuality? What is God's will for believers who experience same-sex desires? Those who choose celibacy are often left to deal with loneliness and the hunger for relationships. How can gay Christians experience God's favor and blessing in the midst of a struggle that for many brings a crippling sense of shame and guilt? Weaving together reflections from his own life and the lives of other Christians, such as Henri Nouwen and Gerard Manley Hopkins, Hill offers a fresh perspective on these questions. He advocates neither unqualified ''healing'' for those who struggle, nor their accommodation to temptation, but rather faithfulness in the midst of brokenness. ''I hope this book may encourage other homosexual Christians to take the risky step of opening up their lives to others in the body of Christ,'' Hill writes. ''In so doing, they may find, as I have, by grace, that being known is spiritually healthier than remaining behind closed doors, that the light is better than the darkness.


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Download or read book Washed and Waiting written by Wesley Hill and published by ReadHowYouWant.com. This book was released on 2010-11-29 with total page 206 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Yet many who sit next to us in the pew at church fit that description, says author Wesley Hill. As a celibate gay Christian, Hill gives us a glimpse of what it looks like to wrestle firsthand with God's ''No'' to same-sex relationships. What does it mean for gay Christians to live faithful to God while struggling with the challenge of their homosexuality? What is God's will for believers who experience same-sex desires? Those who choose celibacy are often left to deal with loneliness and the hunger for relationships. How can gay Christians experience God's favor and blessing in the midst of a struggle that for many brings a crippling sense of shame and guilt? Weaving together reflections from his own life and the lives of other Christians, such as Henri Nouwen and Gerard Manley Hopkins, Hill offers a fresh perspective on these questions. He advocates neither unqualified ''healing'' for those who struggle, nor their accommodation to temptation, but rather faithfulness in the midst of brokenness. ''I hope this book may encourage other homosexual Christians to take the risky step of opening up their lives to others in the body of Christ,'' Hill writes. ''In so doing, they may find, as I have, by grace, that being known is spiritually healthier than remaining behind closed doors, that the light is better than the darkness.

The Waiting

The Waiting

Author: Cathy LaGrow

Publisher: Tyndale House

Published: 2014-05-06

Total Pages: 337

ISBN-13: 1414395922

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An unforgettable true story that will touch your heart and make you believe in love’s enduring legacy, and in the power of prayer. In 1928, 16-year-old Minka was on a picnic in the woods when she was assaulted and raped. And suddenly this innocent farm girl—who still thought the stork brought babies—was pregnant. The baby was secretly born, named Betty Jane, and given up for adoption. For decades, Minka wrote letters trying to get news of her daughter; she kept loving and praying for her, even though she never dared believe they would meet again. Until nearly eighty years later, when Minka whispered her secret, impossible prayer for the first time: Lord, I’d like to see Betty Jane before I die. I promise I won’t bother her or interrupt her life. I just want to lay eyes on her. Unbeknownst to Minka, that very same day, a judge was releasing the sealed adoption records to her 77-year-old daughter. And soon, Minka’s phone would ring. Written by Cathy LaGrow (Minka’s granddaughter), The Waiting brings three generations of this most unusual family together over the course of a century to tell a story of faith that triumphs, forgiveness that sets us free, and love that never forgets.


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Download or read book The Waiting written by Cathy LaGrow and published by Tyndale House. This book was released on 2014-05-06 with total page 337 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: An unforgettable true story that will touch your heart and make you believe in love’s enduring legacy, and in the power of prayer. In 1928, 16-year-old Minka was on a picnic in the woods when she was assaulted and raped. And suddenly this innocent farm girl—who still thought the stork brought babies—was pregnant. The baby was secretly born, named Betty Jane, and given up for adoption. For decades, Minka wrote letters trying to get news of her daughter; she kept loving and praying for her, even though she never dared believe they would meet again. Until nearly eighty years later, when Minka whispered her secret, impossible prayer for the first time: Lord, I’d like to see Betty Jane before I die. I promise I won’t bother her or interrupt her life. I just want to lay eyes on her. Unbeknownst to Minka, that very same day, a judge was releasing the sealed adoption records to her 77-year-old daughter. And soon, Minka’s phone would ring. Written by Cathy LaGrow (Minka’s granddaughter), The Waiting brings three generations of this most unusual family together over the course of a century to tell a story of faith that triumphs, forgiveness that sets us free, and love that never forgets.

Longing for Nothingness

Longing for Nothingness

Author: Andrew Stein

Publisher: Jason Aronson

Published: 2010-01-25

Total Pages: 200

ISBN-13: 076570725X

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Longing for Nothingness demonstrates how conflict between a life and death drive structures desire and the formation of the symptom and how this conceptual framework can be used to treat men and women in the nursing home. In the process, Andrew Stein presents a surprising and novel reading of such important psychoanalytic thinkers as Sigmund Freud, Jacques Lacan, and Melanie Klein.


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Download or read book Longing for Nothingness written by Andrew Stein and published by Jason Aronson. This book was released on 2010-01-25 with total page 200 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Longing for Nothingness demonstrates how conflict between a life and death drive structures desire and the formation of the symptom and how this conceptual framework can be used to treat men and women in the nursing home. In the process, Andrew Stein presents a surprising and novel reading of such important psychoanalytic thinkers as Sigmund Freud, Jacques Lacan, and Melanie Klein.

Love in the Time of Cholera (Illustrated Edition)

Love in the Time of Cholera (Illustrated Edition)

Author: Gabriel García Márquez

Publisher: Vintage

Published: 2020-10-27

Total Pages: 473

ISBN-13: 0593310853

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A beautifully packaged edition of one of García Márquez's most beloved novels, with never-before-seen color illustrations by the Chilean artist Luisa Rivera and an interior design created by the author's son, Gonzalo García Barcha. In their youth, Florentino Ariza and Fermina Daza fall passionately in love. When Fermina eventually chooses to marry a wealthy, well-born doctor, Florentino is devastated, but he is a romantic. As he rises in his business career he whiles away the years in 622 affairs—yet he reserves his heart for Fermina. Her husband dies at last, and Florentino purposefully attends the funeral. Fifty years, nine months, and four days after he first declared his love for Fermina, he will do so again.


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Download or read book Love in the Time of Cholera (Illustrated Edition) written by Gabriel García Márquez and published by Vintage. This book was released on 2020-10-27 with total page 473 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A beautifully packaged edition of one of García Márquez's most beloved novels, with never-before-seen color illustrations by the Chilean artist Luisa Rivera and an interior design created by the author's son, Gonzalo García Barcha. In their youth, Florentino Ariza and Fermina Daza fall passionately in love. When Fermina eventually chooses to marry a wealthy, well-born doctor, Florentino is devastated, but he is a romantic. As he rises in his business career he whiles away the years in 622 affairs—yet he reserves his heart for Fermina. Her husband dies at last, and Florentino purposefully attends the funeral. Fifty years, nine months, and four days after he first declared his love for Fermina, he will do so again.

Yours Always

Yours Always

Author: Eleanor Bass

Publisher: Icon Books

Published: 2017-01-05

Total Pages: 183

ISBN-13: 1785781693

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Love letters are potent. They breathe. They speak. They can arouse, comfort, captivate. They can also cut deep. The powerful, deeply personal letters collected here reveal the painful underside of love. Witness Winston Churchill 'growl with anger to be treated with benevolent indifference' and Edith Piaf reel in the throes of a 'terrible' passion. Through the letters of literary icons Charlotte Brontë, Oscar Wilde and Virginia Woolf, Hollywood stars Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton and statesmen Henry VIII and Franklin D. Roosevelt, Yours Always offers an unusually intimate insight into the lives of such illustrious figures. Love is revealed here in its many shades of disharmony and confusion: unrequited, uncertain, imbalanced, unconventional, thwarted, failed and forbidden. Love is not always rose-tinted, and Yours Always illuminates the sorrows that can accompany falling in, falling out, and staying in love. Includes letter to and from: Charlotte Brontë, Richard Burton, Lord Byron, Winston Churchill, Marie Curie, Charles Dickens, Ernest Hemingway, Henry VIII, Ted Hughes, Graham Greene, Franz Kafka, Marilyn Monroe, Iris Murdoch, Edith Piaf, Franklin D. Roosevelt, Elizabeth Taylor, Oscar Wilde, Virginia Woolf, W.B. Yeats


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Download or read book Yours Always written by Eleanor Bass and published by Icon Books. This book was released on 2017-01-05 with total page 183 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Love letters are potent. They breathe. They speak. They can arouse, comfort, captivate. They can also cut deep. The powerful, deeply personal letters collected here reveal the painful underside of love. Witness Winston Churchill 'growl with anger to be treated with benevolent indifference' and Edith Piaf reel in the throes of a 'terrible' passion. Through the letters of literary icons Charlotte Brontë, Oscar Wilde and Virginia Woolf, Hollywood stars Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton and statesmen Henry VIII and Franklin D. Roosevelt, Yours Always offers an unusually intimate insight into the lives of such illustrious figures. Love is revealed here in its many shades of disharmony and confusion: unrequited, uncertain, imbalanced, unconventional, thwarted, failed and forbidden. Love is not always rose-tinted, and Yours Always illuminates the sorrows that can accompany falling in, falling out, and staying in love. Includes letter to and from: Charlotte Brontë, Richard Burton, Lord Byron, Winston Churchill, Marie Curie, Charles Dickens, Ernest Hemingway, Henry VIII, Ted Hughes, Graham Greene, Franz Kafka, Marilyn Monroe, Iris Murdoch, Edith Piaf, Franklin D. Roosevelt, Elizabeth Taylor, Oscar Wilde, Virginia Woolf, W.B. Yeats

Book of Longing

Book of Longing

Author: Leonard Cohen

Publisher: McClelland & Stewart

Published: 2008-11-19

Total Pages: 242

ISBN-13: 1551991586

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Leonard Cohen is one of the great writers, performers, and most consistently daring artists of our time. Book of Longing is Cohen’s eagerly awaited new collection of poems, following his highly acclaimed 1984 title, Book of Mercy, and his hugely successful 1993 publication, Stranger Music, a Globe and Mail national bestseller. Book of Longing contains erotic, playful, and provocative line drawings and artwork on every page, by the author, which interact in exciting and unexpected ways on the page with poetry that is timeless, meditative, and at times darkly humorous. The book brings together all the elements that have brought Leonard Cohen’s artistry with language worldwide recognition.


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Download or read book Book of Longing written by Leonard Cohen and published by McClelland & Stewart. This book was released on 2008-11-19 with total page 242 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Leonard Cohen is one of the great writers, performers, and most consistently daring artists of our time. Book of Longing is Cohen’s eagerly awaited new collection of poems, following his highly acclaimed 1984 title, Book of Mercy, and his hugely successful 1993 publication, Stranger Music, a Globe and Mail national bestseller. Book of Longing contains erotic, playful, and provocative line drawings and artwork on every page, by the author, which interact in exciting and unexpected ways on the page with poetry that is timeless, meditative, and at times darkly humorous. The book brings together all the elements that have brought Leonard Cohen’s artistry with language worldwide recognition.

We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting for

We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting for

Author: Alice Walker

Publisher: The New Press

Published: 2007-11-06

Total Pages: 273

ISBN-13: 1595585893

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A New York Times bestseller in hardcover, Pulitzer Prize winner Alice Walker’s We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For was called “stunningly insightful” and “a book that will inspire hope” by Publishers Weekly. Drawing equally on Walker’s spiritual grounding and her progressive political convictions, each chapter concludes with a recommended meditation to teach us patience, compassion, and forgiveness. We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For takes on some of the greatest challenges of our times and in it Walker encourages readers to take faith in the fact that, despite the daunting predicaments we find ourselves in, we are uniquely prepared to create positive change. The hardcover edition of We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For included a national tour that saw standing-room–only crowds and standing ovations. Walker’s clear vision and calm meditative voice—truly “a light in darkness”—has struck a deep chord among a large and devoted readership.


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Download or read book We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting for written by Alice Walker and published by The New Press. This book was released on 2007-11-06 with total page 273 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A New York Times bestseller in hardcover, Pulitzer Prize winner Alice Walker’s We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For was called “stunningly insightful” and “a book that will inspire hope” by Publishers Weekly. Drawing equally on Walker’s spiritual grounding and her progressive political convictions, each chapter concludes with a recommended meditation to teach us patience, compassion, and forgiveness. We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For takes on some of the greatest challenges of our times and in it Walker encourages readers to take faith in the fact that, despite the daunting predicaments we find ourselves in, we are uniquely prepared to create positive change. The hardcover edition of We Are the Ones We Have Been Waiting For included a national tour that saw standing-room–only crowds and standing ovations. Walker’s clear vision and calm meditative voice—truly “a light in darkness”—has struck a deep chord among a large and devoted readership.

The Pisces

The Pisces

Author: Melissa Broder

Publisher: Hogarth

Published: 2019-02-05

Total Pages: 306

ISBN-13: 1524761567

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LONGLISTED FOR THE CENTER FOR FICTION FIRST NOVEL PRIZE LONGLISTED FOR THE WOMEN'S PRIZE FOR FICTION “Bold, virtuosic, addictive, erotic – there is nothing like The Pisces. I have no idea how Broder does it, but I loved every dark and sublime page of it.” —Stephanie Danler, author of Sweetbitter Lucy has been writing her dissertation on Sappho for nine years when she and her boyfriend break up in a dramatic flameout. After she bottoms out in Phoenix, her sister in Los Angeles insists Lucy dog-sit for the summer. Annika's home is a gorgeous glass cube on Venice Beach, but Lucy can find little relief from her anxiety — not in the Greek chorus of women in her love addiction therapy group, not in her frequent Tinder excursions, not even in Dominic the foxhound's easy affection. Everything changes when Lucy becomes entranced by an eerily attractive swimmer while sitting alone on the beach rocks one night. But when Lucy learns the truth about his identity, their relationship, and Lucy’s understanding of what love should look like, take a very unexpected turn. A masterful blend of vivid realism and giddy fantasy, pairing hilarious frankness with pulse-racing eroticism, THE PISCES is a story about falling in obsessive love with a merman: a figure of Sirenic fantasy whose very existence pushes Lucy to question everything she thought she knew about love, lust, and meaning in the one life we have.


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Download or read book The Pisces written by Melissa Broder and published by Hogarth. This book was released on 2019-02-05 with total page 306 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: LONGLISTED FOR THE CENTER FOR FICTION FIRST NOVEL PRIZE LONGLISTED FOR THE WOMEN'S PRIZE FOR FICTION “Bold, virtuosic, addictive, erotic – there is nothing like The Pisces. I have no idea how Broder does it, but I loved every dark and sublime page of it.” —Stephanie Danler, author of Sweetbitter Lucy has been writing her dissertation on Sappho for nine years when she and her boyfriend break up in a dramatic flameout. After she bottoms out in Phoenix, her sister in Los Angeles insists Lucy dog-sit for the summer. Annika's home is a gorgeous glass cube on Venice Beach, but Lucy can find little relief from her anxiety — not in the Greek chorus of women in her love addiction therapy group, not in her frequent Tinder excursions, not even in Dominic the foxhound's easy affection. Everything changes when Lucy becomes entranced by an eerily attractive swimmer while sitting alone on the beach rocks one night. But when Lucy learns the truth about his identity, their relationship, and Lucy’s understanding of what love should look like, take a very unexpected turn. A masterful blend of vivid realism and giddy fantasy, pairing hilarious frankness with pulse-racing eroticism, THE PISCES is a story about falling in obsessive love with a merman: a figure of Sirenic fantasy whose very existence pushes Lucy to question everything she thought she knew about love, lust, and meaning in the one life we have.

Love and Longing in Bombay

Love and Longing in Bombay

Author: Vikram Chandra

Publisher: Faber & Faber

Published: 2011-05-05

Total Pages: 273

ISBN-13: 0571267165

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Set in contemporary India, Love and Longing in Bombay confirms Vikram Chandra as one of today's most exciting young writers. In five haunting tales he paints a remarkable picture of Bombay - its ghosts, its passions, its feuds, its mysteries - while exploring timeless questions of the human spirit. 'When Midnight's Children first arrived on the scene, it became necessary to revaluate stories from and about India. With Vikram Chandra's collection - his second book - it is time to take stock again . . . Breathtaking.' Observer


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Download or read book Love and Longing in Bombay written by Vikram Chandra and published by Faber & Faber. This book was released on 2011-05-05 with total page 273 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Set in contemporary India, Love and Longing in Bombay confirms Vikram Chandra as one of today's most exciting young writers. In five haunting tales he paints a remarkable picture of Bombay - its ghosts, its passions, its feuds, its mysteries - while exploring timeless questions of the human spirit. 'When Midnight's Children first arrived on the scene, it became necessary to revaluate stories from and about India. With Vikram Chandra's collection - his second book - it is time to take stock again . . . Breathtaking.' Observer